It is unfortunate that I have to go away after only just starting on my weight loss journey, but I'm still feeling very motivated to continue my plan when I go away. I'm not sure about the calorie restriction part, but I definitely plan to keep moving!
As optimistic as I am about losing the pounds in the long run, I am a bit stressed about how I'm going to look on the beach during my vacation. I tried on my bathing suits a few days ago and I look like a giant, blubbery whale! I can only hope that I can have fun on my vacation without worrying too much about my diet and my appearance. Insecurities can certainly rain on this parade, but I don't know how I can control a lifelong mental habit of stressing over my body image. Of course, we won't know how it will go until I get there. I suppose there really is no point worrying about it now.
Right now, I should be focusing on sticking with my current goals and prepping for a do-nothing vacation!
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
2 days before vacay!
I have only a couple of days to get done with all of our chores before heading out to vacation. There is a near-impossible list of items that need to be done, but I think I'm going to attempt it anyways, seeing as how I don't think I'll be getting much help.
In other news, this morning, I decided to wear the skirt I made for my intermediate sewing class. It definitely fits me better than most of the skirts I've bought. I mean, at least it fits my new fatter body. Lol! As much as I like how the fabric looks, I didn't like working with it. Still, I'm excited enough about my new skirt that I wouldn't mind trying to make a few more just for practice!
Other than what's outlined above, there's not much else goin' on.
In other news, this morning, I decided to wear the skirt I made for my intermediate sewing class. It definitely fits me better than most of the skirts I've bought. I mean, at least it fits my new fatter body. Lol! As much as I like how the fabric looks, I didn't like working with it. Still, I'm excited enough about my new skirt that I wouldn't mind trying to make a few more just for practice!
Other than what's outlined above, there's not much else goin' on.
Monday, May 18, 2009
RK Bridal
I got out of work early last Friday and went off to try on dresses at RK Bridal. So glad I went on a weekday instead of Saturday! I hear weekends are horrible there! Anyways, the woman who helped me was VERY sour and RUDE at first. Not bothering to look at me or shake hands or even properly introduce herself, she just said her name and started walking away. I hesitated to follow her until she said, "Come here!" and pointed to a dressing room. I had to help her bring the dresses I picked out into the dressing room and without even looking at me, asked me what I was looking for. Meanwhile, I felt like a total ass for even bothering to smile at her when she is constantly turning her back to me. I told her that I didn't want to look two feet tall and I had no boobs and... she cuts me off and walks off saying she'll be back with some dresses.
Thoroughly pissed now, I sat in the room fuming. She comes back with two dresses added to the four I picked out. There is a 7 dress limit at RK Bridal. She helps me into the first one, which is one she had picked out and let me say the first words out of my mouth was, "Wow! You picked a BEAUTIFUL dress! I have a WAIST!!!" and that was the first smile I saw from her.
After that, she must have felt more at ease around me and things went MUCH more pleasantly. At the end, I tried on more than 7 dresses and we picked out 4 that I really liked on. I was VERY happy to hear that all the dresses we picked are at or below the $1200 mark.
See the dresses below:
Casablanca 1914
Casablanca 1872
Private Label PL5
Private Label 1350
Thoroughly pissed now, I sat in the room fuming. She comes back with two dresses added to the four I picked out. There is a 7 dress limit at RK Bridal. She helps me into the first one, which is one she had picked out and let me say the first words out of my mouth was, "Wow! You picked a BEAUTIFUL dress! I have a WAIST!!!" and that was the first smile I saw from her.
After that, she must have felt more at ease around me and things went MUCH more pleasantly. At the end, I tried on more than 7 dresses and we picked out 4 that I really liked on. I was VERY happy to hear that all the dresses we picked are at or below the $1200 mark.
See the dresses below:
Casablanca 1914
Casablanca 1872
Private Label PL5
Private Label 1350
Boo!
So, I just got engaged! And am going on vacation in a couple of days. Both stressful events because now I have a wedding to plan and have to worry about my whale of a body traumatizing some poor soul wandering the beach. My size is also an issue in finding a dress that doesn't make me look like I have no boobs and no waist!
So seeing as how my weight and body image are heading the list of things on my mind, I decided to tackle it in earnest this time. I joined a free online exercise and diet program that tracks your food intake and exercise routine. It's probably not the best time to start this since I'm going away in a few days and the habit can't form if it's interrupted in the middle. However, I can't bear to wait so we'll see how it goes during the vacation and when I get back.
So far, I've been pretty faithful at tracking, if not keeping to the calorie restriction. I calculated that for my current size and lifestyle, I need about 1445 calories to maintain my current weight. I need to eat 500 less calories in order to lose a pound a week. However, when I try keep to 1100 calories a day, it's torturous! I'm hungry for most of the day, and have to constantly remind myself that almost anything I eat will put me over that limit.
Part of the solution to the above problem is to eat some more calories, but to also exercise. Now that the weather is warmer, I can actually be more active. Walking around the city was a major part of my activity last year and I find myself doing it more now as well.
So the plan is to continue to be good about my diet and exercise plan. During my vacation, I will still try to be conscious of what I eat, but probably won't be tracking it. I mean, I'll be eating smaller portions than I usually eat and also plan to walk along the beach a lot to get in some exercise. I want to relax while on vacation, but I don't want to lose focus either.
Once I get back, I can return to my current routine. Wish me luck!
So seeing as how my weight and body image are heading the list of things on my mind, I decided to tackle it in earnest this time. I joined a free online exercise and diet program that tracks your food intake and exercise routine. It's probably not the best time to start this since I'm going away in a few days and the habit can't form if it's interrupted in the middle. However, I can't bear to wait so we'll see how it goes during the vacation and when I get back.
So far, I've been pretty faithful at tracking, if not keeping to the calorie restriction. I calculated that for my current size and lifestyle, I need about 1445 calories to maintain my current weight. I need to eat 500 less calories in order to lose a pound a week. However, when I try keep to 1100 calories a day, it's torturous! I'm hungry for most of the day, and have to constantly remind myself that almost anything I eat will put me over that limit.
Part of the solution to the above problem is to eat some more calories, but to also exercise. Now that the weather is warmer, I can actually be more active. Walking around the city was a major part of my activity last year and I find myself doing it more now as well.
So the plan is to continue to be good about my diet and exercise plan. During my vacation, I will still try to be conscious of what I eat, but probably won't be tracking it. I mean, I'll be eating smaller portions than I usually eat and also plan to walk along the beach a lot to get in some exercise. I want to relax while on vacation, but I don't want to lose focus either.
Once I get back, I can return to my current routine. Wish me luck!
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