Pregnant!?

Earlier this year, hubby and I started trying for a baby. Everything I read says that 35 is the magic number when women start having fertility problems and not to be alarmed if it takes 6 months to a year to get pregnant. I had people insist that I should track my cycle and test for ovulation every day. Other than trying to eat healthy, I didn't do any of those things. I just figured if we "did it" every other day, something will just naturally happen.

Even so, I was getting nervous because I was turning 35 this year. This is the year the magic number will come and dry up all my eggs and that is when I, as a women, expire like rotten milk... or something to that effect. All those stories of women who were trying to conceive and were having difficulties really got to me, but it also made me believe that it will be a while before it happens.

So it was rather unexpected that after 2 cycles, my period didn't come as scheduled this month. At first I thought it was late, but my period is more likely to come early than late, so I took a home pregnancy test in the wee hours of the morning. It said I was pregnant. I slept on the news for another hour before I had to wake up for work. That's when I told hubby. I was not happy or unhappy at first. I didn't really know how to react and sort of just was like, okay so I guess I have stuff I need to do now.

Then, as I thought about all the things we'll need to get and buy for the baby, I got excited. How funny that shopping was the thing that picked me up. Honestly, I both welcome and dread pregnancy. The whole thing scares me but now there's nothing for it but to move forward.